Revenge isn't sweet when you are on the other end of the stick

    I find it hard to accept a break up gone wrong for all the silliest of reasons. For a while it's hard to shake of the feeling that something was amiss for a long time. But there is always that false hope that makes you want to go on and make things right. I think women feel more responsible to make things alright in a relationship, when they feel threatened in any way. It could be because at some point you realize that 'He's just not that into you' (For more on that, refer to my earlier posts). That's a moot point when you have convinced yourself so well that things are going to be alright you are shocked when the door hits you on your way out.
    I guess I had this a long time coming. And it's good to know what's on the other end of the spectrum. I now know how it feels like to have your heart crushed, stomped and had a merry-little-dance done all over it. It gives new perspective to the phrase "when you hit rock-bottom, there's only one way out and that's going up". So for all those of  you have been in similar or close-to situations. My heart bleeds for you. I do know how it is to be made a fool of  when you have given it more than your very best. It's time to sit down and reflect. You did do too much. You were in over your head and it's time to kick back and enjoy the fact that you really and truly deserved someone so much better. It's staring at you right in the face. The bitter truth not made so because it's what your willing to accept.
    But it has got to be a first that a guy dated me just for revenge. Just not to make himself look like a fool among friends whose opinions and feeling matter more than me. I'm glad it's over. I chose to ponder over it and I am a romantic at heart and nature. I can't risk not having an idealistic view on love and romance. It's who I am and will always be. So, Love will always be this warm and elusive romance that makes my head spin and my heart beat faster. It's just going to happen again but i also believe with the one person who would deserve it all.